Dreamer

I am a dreamer.
I like to dream of places I have been and places I might go.
I often dream about Montana.
It's the one place that I've lived that truly felt like home.
















I lived in Flathead valley for 6 years - with Youth With a Mission.
Most of my spiritual growth took place in that amazing place.
Every day I could, I was out hiking, skiing, biking, running -
enjoying the outdoors and some good alone time with God.
He truly spoke deeply to my soul during those years.

I was a student for a year in a Bible school..
I was then on staff for 5 years - 2 of those years on staff for the same Bible school.
Three years in Montana studying the Bible and it radically transformed my life.

Then I lived in Bozeman for a year with Steve - during our second year of marriage.
It was a great year - just what we needed after a difficult first year of marriage.
We made a ton of great memories there and lifelong friends!

Now, we're living in Colorado Springs and have been here for 5 years.
These past 5 years have been mostly difficult and challenging...
not to mention lonely.
Many times during these 5 years, I have found myself dreaming of Montana.
I dream of the "good years", as I have longed to get out of these difficult years.
Yet amist many challenges and hardships, God has blessed us with our kids.
Two beautiful gifts from God that have also transformed my life.

As Steve and I are faced with some major decisions,
I find myself dreaming of Montana again - my promised land.
But I sense God telling me that He may not give me that again.
He just may have something else beautiful in store for me.
Montana is a beautiful memory - but not a perfect place.
Nothing on this earth is perfect.

I pray that I will be open to God's leading and not hold too tightly to my dreams.
They are after all, only dreams.